I feel like, my art just isn't going anywhere. I can see improvement, I like how I'm improving but I feel like it's not even worth my while. I feel like no matter how good I get, that no one will ever care about it. I don't make art for myself to look at. I make art to put my imagination into the real world. But I feel like no one even cares. I feel like, in a sense, everything is just crumbling. I know it sounds weird but I've actually had to sacrifice a lot just so I could improve to the point i did. It's my goal to one day work with a video game company but I feel like with the way my art's going, they won't even consider looking at any portfolio of mine.
I know I make posts like this a lot, so sorry. I want to improve, I want to be good. All the praise in the world means absolutely nothing if I don't feel it. Also, I know it's a petty thing to do but I always look at my favorite artists work and I get so jealous and I tell myself "You'll never be as good as them so quit trying". Sometimes, I listen to this voice, and it makes me really want to quit trying to get better. I love art, it's my passion, BUT, when I compare myself to others it just makes me feel numb inside. I guess I just really need to talk to someone right now.
Mood: Pissed Off